Thursday, November 19, 2009

Being Honest.

There was I queuing up at the v5 malay food stall to buy lunch. As I hasn't eaten fish in ages, I took a small piece of ikan bawal and put it on my rice,, then I took some vegetables and two pieces of omelette's . I realised that the piece of fish meat has been covered by the omelette and vege. So I went to the person who sells the food so that he can determine the price for my lunch.
He told me it's Rm3 and started to pack the food. And without hesitation, I told him I had taken the 'Piece of ikan bawal' , Then he replied it's Rm4.50...

If I were 'some' of my friends or people of this world, I would've just kept silent and get away with this. It's the food seller's fault after all, since he wasn't observant enough. But deep deep down in me, I know I'm a follower of Christ, And we as sons and daughters who have been redeemed by Him through his crucifixion on the tree, ought to be different from the people of the world which is ruled by satan.

The person who sells his food is inspired today, that not all chinese are conmans ,honesty will be rewarded, there's still people who stand up to their values as human although they are at a disadvantage.

Chowz :)

Monday, November 9, 2009

FINALS>

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME

PHILIPPIANS 4:13

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Pain from beauty


Thinking of all the countless times exchanging emails with sweetwater.com, researches being made on the internet, time spent in anticipating the arrival of this guitar, trips made to kl, funds used to purchase this guitar, persuading my mom to allow me to buy, persuading my unc to lend his mastercard, prayers being made for its safe arrival, worries that would it be damaged and etc,
makes me feel kinda wasted for selling it away.

Anyway now you're with a new owner, a person who serves in a church, And I feel lighter n glad in someway.
~you're so beautiful that it hurts~
Gone forever is my first guitar, definitely has lots of sentimental value to me.. sobs

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

What have i been doing

Has been hitting the gym lately for the past weeks, at least three times a week.
Wants to look better, become stronger and keep fit.
Motivated from the inner person of me.
Trying not to be so sensitive of the negative words that people throw at you.
Give others the benefit of their doubt.

Have just finished test two.
It was quite challenging and fun too.
Crazy, I can stare at the question for long period of time not writing down anything.
Am totally drained now, hence expressing myself in jagged sentences.

Had not missed Sunday service.
Sleepover at church in Ipoh countless times.
Practised songs on the drums with lots of patience and strife.
Time is used up for God's glory.
All the talents and smooth worship, all glory goes to Him.
Roses I've received, none of which I deserve.
Brothers and Sisters who are ever caring.
A pastor who loved God and His people.
Jesus who initiated in his love.
Let love tear down these strongholds in my life.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Comfort, Assurance and Decisions

Take me with you,
To the place of everlasting bliss,
A majestic garden for two,
Where love so deep is seen.

All I seek is your face,
To be in your warm embrace,
For I'm made whole by your grace,
I need not make a phrase.

A boat that is meant for two to row,
You said "I'll be with you whatever this life brings."
Together in the darkness of this world, we glow,
A story for generations ring.

Oh my God, my heart is divided into two,
The world or your laws to choose,
Rebuke me so I won't be a fool,
For with You I'll never lose.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

The thin line between laziness and depression

The bible has its on views on laziness and depression which will both cause negative and deadly impacts on a person's life if not treated before they become a very hard habit to shun off or like a cancer of hopelessness that drains the energy out of our soul.

Depression is elusive and hard to define since there are components of depression that is simply impossible to describe. Some times, depression can be confused with healthy grieving. They both share some similarities but isn't the same.. Depression is the departure from the grieving process. When we grieve, we feel the sorrow of our loss. But in depression, the sorrow of our loss is numbed.
Grieving leads to a renewal of hope while depression creates and additional set of problems that locks us in our very own dungeon of gloom.

Romans 23:8
Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies

So, what is depression? Depression is a troubled state or mood that consists of several ongoing disturbances in energy levels,sleep, appetite and the ability to concentrate. The more the various disturbances affect with a person's ability to Eat ,work, Think, and to enjoy once pleasurable activities, the greater the severity of depression.
The experience of loss is a major factor that contributes to depression. For instance, the loss of a spouse or child, the loss of a Job or Position status, the loss of an opportunity or personal freedom, or the loss of good health and financial resources.

Laziness (also called indolence) is a disinclination to activity or exertion despite having the ability to do so. It is often used as a pejorative. Chronic laziness may be an underlying psychological condition.

Feelings of laziness may be a symptom of clinical depression or listlessness ( wiki)


Note the word 'may' above. Therefore, the point I am trying to make here is that, Depression is related to laziness. The underlying reason for laziness could be depression and therefore depression should be avoided although we will suffer loss of a loved one, loss of status/recognition, and other severe examples of calamity in life. It's easier said than done though, everyone even the strongest of all man/woman is not immune to it.


Last Friday at His Generation, I received a slap on my face after hearing to the sermon on laziness. Undoubtedly , laziness can cause calamity and to the worst extend, even destruction of one's life. I was so convicted in me. In fact, I felt so guilty of myself after hearing what my pastor had said. I felt as if everything that was said was directed to me. He's the epitome of a hard working person, He runs the church, kept his words, and is my teacher of the law of God.
I'm the kind of person who is so afraid of doing even a little wrong that may not be seen as wrong, I'll still feel guilty of myself. For example, listening to contemporary songs that have some screaming in it with some negative lyrics. Maybe it was due to the environment in which I was raised up in.

I liked the book of proverbs because it teaches us to be wise. I admire King Solomon's words of wisdom but I despise his sin of having approximately 1000 concubines. So Solomon said,
" Go to the ant you sluggard, Consider her ways and be wise!"
Now, how do we define a lazy person. Is there a solid, tangible and definite example of a person who is lazy?
The example given was that a person who is hunched-back and walks slowly is a lazy person. I could relate to it at first. But later I realise that the example given was out of poor examination and careless thought. The reason being is because not all people who are hunched back are lazy. My professor Dr.Bambang who taught me Chemistry is Hunched back. But he has a PHD In his field of study. Have you heard of something called self-esteem? A few people who are hunched-back whom I know, Aren't lazy at all. they may walk slow and a little sloppy but they get their work done and they are top scorers in school.

If this example is given, I would think to myself,what about Guys that could stand straight due to back problems? it's a very bad and demeaning example and will hurt people's feelings for sure. Therefore the previous example of a hunch back person should be dropped.

Besides, giving up can have its root reasons too. We should never give up, press on with life and continue rebuilding what that is fallen. If we give up, what life do we have then? But people who gave up on their life is not necessarily lazy.

I wish to continue more, but it has been a very long post..

So long blog.